Pregnant!!!

So, the hubby and I are expecting a little one in mid February! Exciting right? Yes and no. Yes: I love kids and I'm excited about having my own. No: I'm tired, nauseous, and cranky. I just started my 2nd trimester and I've already thrown up twice. In my first trimester, I only threw up once. I'm more tired now than when I was in the first trimester. My clothes no longer fit, but I am losing weight. I have a headache almost every day, I'm too scared to eat in case I throw up, and no matter how early I go to sleep, I'm always tired. And not just oh I need a nap tired, I'm talking about I could go to sleep at noon and not wake up until 6 at night tired. Matter of fact, there are some days, I'll come home from work with the intention to take an hour nap and not wake up until the next day! Oh and did I mention, I'm constantly having to use the bathroom? It's like 7-8 times a day and in the middle of the night. I'm gassy, and I stay hungry (although the nausea prevents me from eating much).

Don't get me wrong however, I'm still super excited about the baby. I'm almost 4 months and I can't wait to find out what we're having. I've already started baby shopping in my head on what I want to get. I have the travel system all picked out, plus I've narrowed the crib down to 3 choices. I've already scoped out girls and boys baby clothes to see what I would want to dress my child in, and I've already got my list prepared on what I need for my baby registry. Excited much? Yes! Everyday, even when I'm going through hell, I think about when I'll finally be able to hold my little one. Will it look like me? My husband? Both of us? Our parents or siblings? Will they be tall or will they take after my Dad's side and be short? Will they play sports? Or will my daughter be (ugh!) a prissy girl? Will my son be more nerdy geek or athletic? Or will they be both? I'm hoping for both, there's nothing like a smart athlete! Will I be a good mom? Will Shaddean be a good dad? And then...Will the grandparents make our lives hell by spoiling the kid rotten?

I've already picked out the names (let's be real, I've had names picked out for YEARS!!!). Godparents have already been decided on, and I've already decided on where I want to dedicate my baby (at none other than Mt. Rose!). I stay on the internet looking at nursery room motifs to get an idea of how I want my baby's room decorated. I like pink and purple for a little princess and blues and greens for my little man. I love going to ultrasound appointments because I always experience such joy at seeing my baby on the monitor. The first two times we saw it, it couldn't be still! It was just moving its little arms and legs. This last time, it was in chill mode--literally! With one arm behind its head, and with its legs crossed at the ankles; my little angel was chilling! It was too cute!

I can't wait for February, but it seems like February can wait for me. I swear time is creeping by at a snail's pace! February please hurry! Besides the fact that I'd love to be free of these pesky symptoms, I cannot wait to meet the little one who resides within me! And it'll be a joy to see my hubby's face when he finally holds the baby. AND I can't wait to place my little one in my parents arms and say, "This is your new grand______"

Oh! And did I mention my brother and his wife are expecting their first child? And that their baby is due in February as well? And that we're practically due at the same time? And no, it wasn't planned. These little ones are our parents first grandchildren. So it's double the blessing for our family!